Time is running by, & I’m so lost here.

I feel like my time is running by. Yesterday felt like August, today feels like September, tomorrow feels like October.  My busy schedules at school is grabbing a large portion of my time. Where is the work-life balance? I feel so taken aback by the amount of school work that I have no time for myself.

And hey, I want to know you, but time is running out. I’ll never know you like I thought I will.

I feel like I’m sinking to the bottom of the ocean, I need to start swimming up. The dory motivation : “just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just keep swimming swimming swimming” and I will get there.

Infatuation

As defined, Infatuation is being carried away by an unreasoned love or passion; usually admiration for someone. (Wikipedia says)

Do you still remember the person that you were secretly in love with, but never got the courage to show how much you like him/her? But look here, your mind has just been overwhelmed with images of this new person. Someone whom you don’t really know, but those eyes just manage to cross all the hurdles and caught your attention. Just so quickly, so silently, and each time you look into those eyes with a tinge of electric shock? Okay exaggerated, but honestly, this new person seemed to grab hold of your mind.

Thinking back, weren’t you so deeply in love with the previous? Going deeper, are you simply letting your mind let loose?! Wondering if there’s such thing called love at first sight. Isn’t that all about the looks? I’ve always thought that way and I’m still bearing the same thoughts right now. Time will find you someone real. Time will show whether you let your mind loose or does that person feel the same for you as well.

Mr. Nice, Mr. Smart, Mr. Know It All,

Mr. Right/Wrong.

Time, please prove it.

A Quarter of Life, Studying

Daily Prompt: Another school semester will soon begin. If you’re in school, are you looking forward to starting classes? If you’re out of school, what do you miss about it — or are you glad those days are over?

Already into the second week of school, and I’ve seen myself putting surfing and blogging aside. I see how my daily schedule unfold in a busy and messy way. It’s all about reading the textbook, jotting the notes, doing the homework, keeping up with the progress, participating in class, smiling to familiar but not as familiar faces in school and waving a hand. It’s probably the long vacation, I’ve not caught the mood of studying, I’ve not grasp the momentum. Yes, momentum of studying.

Recall the days I was out of school, I had to work. I miss school so much. I miss those friends, I miss lunches together. I miss those moments so much despite the fact that we were only having simple meals, and rushing project deadlines. I wasn’t so glad that the time spent in my previous school was so short. I wished it was longer. I wished to have the same people around me to feel the comfort.

Now that I’m in a whole new environment, it’s about random groupings, say hi to everyone, mixing with different people everyday. I’m not used to a bigger environment with more students. I’m not used to the kind of tasks assigned. I’m not used to everything. But I’ll adjust, soon, I hope. I wish to find some friends whom I can talk endlessly with, just like the ones I’ve already found. But wishing doesn’t get you anywhere, action does. But who to mix with? Life’s going through the “question marks” phase. I need to see the rainbow at the end of this tunnel.

We’ll always miss the past times that we had, and think that living in the current is a torture. We need to move on to look back and realize.

Have you ever felt this way

I shall keep this short but not sweet.

Have you ever been questioned by someone you don’t really know very well? Have you ever been asked “is it true that you…?” Have you ever felt so wronged that you don’t feel like explaining? Have you ever felt like you wanna talk to someone about the whole incident, about how angry you were?

But, you dont know how to go about saying the whole story. You wanted so much to say.. hey, I felt better for walking away from you guys actually. I felt like my life has changed. I am more positive now. I feel more confident of myself right now. What should I say. It feels like me again! We may be fated to meet in this life but we were never meant to last for a long time.

Sometimes, when you felt like you don’t belong, you probably have to take a step back. And you might realise who are the ones blocking the rays of the sun from reaching you, who are the ones giving you darkness. You need to move away, find some others, who will stand in line with you, grab your hands and walk together through the worst times.

I wish I never have to feel this way again.

TGIF

It’s a no school Friday! I’m feeling exhausted from all the assignment schedule that’s gonna worth devoting some time to finish. I haven’t started doing, and yet I’m mentally exhausted. How can this happen to me? Where’s all that studying motivation gone to? This feeling always comes back haunting when a long vacation ends. You can’t really get your mind back to the studying mode. But when you look around you, everyone else looks like they’re all prepared to ace the exams. I fear for the lack of catching up on news, I fear for my language, I fear for my own ability to stand on the same path with them. I’ve never felt so many types of fear before. It’s the first time this stress becomes so powerful that I have to vent out my frustrations and fear right here.

I need to pick myself up. Gear up. Walk ahead of the rest. Get ready to ace it all!

Gather up my courage, my motivation to walk through this journey, to find a better place.

 

Who am I

Think of your blog as a mirror: what does it reveal? Consider your blog name, theme choice, design, bio, posts… what does every element tell you about yourself?

Mirror mirror on the wall, tell me who am I.

Firstly my Blog Name: I previously had the idea of naming it something related to winter solstice, because I’m born in that season. Later I thought again, I wanted something else. Since I am from a sunny country, where there’s no four season, mainly sun and rain, I incorporated the word Summer in the name. Then I matched it with Reminisce, which means to recollect on past events. Pairing the two words up, I get something like recollecting the past events of Summer. I would say the Blog Name tells that I am a person who can’t make up my mind sometimes. But when I really have the will to make up my mind, I will definitely have a reason for the decision I make.

Second on the list, my Theme Choice: I chose the The Adelle Theme. Looking pleasant in white, and mix of pink and grey. This part is obvious. I like things to appear simple and clear-cut. Using too many colors would make anything look complicated. I don’t like complicated things, though my mind is a complication of its own. (Oops!)

Thirdly, the About me section: I’ve read lots of advice on blogs that says the About tab is important. It tells your visitors who you are, what do you write about and some other details about you. When your visitors know more about you, then they are likely to visit your blog again. I wanted more people to want to read my blog, I wanted to share my perspectives to more people, and see what they think about mine. Furthermore, I wanted a place to blog about all my shopping experiences! I need a place to tell different tales from that of personal tales. My About me page shows how sincere I am in writing this blog and keeping it alive. Thus I am sincere and serious about things that I am keen on doing. (Reading a textbook is probably a thing that I will always kick off with a serious attitude but slowly, eventually, the seriousness dies off… )

Lastly, my Posts : It’s mainly Daily Prompts as of now and some posts on shopping experiences. Daily Prompts triggered my imagination, opinions and the past. Probably my posts showed how much I like sharing my perception of things. I guess I have this noisy self inbuilt in me.

Summary/Conclusion, actually, I am who I am. Share/Simple/Serious/Strong-minded. Aha!